Perfectly Ruined Plans

I keep thinking about how we got to this point. How did Josh and I go from "only having two kids" to being in the process of Adopting from Ethiopia. Seriously I am struggling to wrap my head around it! Josh and I had plans! Planes of moving up in the "world". Having more stuff! Giving our children everything !

I want to ask Pastors that I have heard giving the sermon that says, Are you living for you? Or are you living for God? Are you being his hands and feet? They need to have a continued sermon with help full hints on what to do if you are! I have now heard similar sermons by 3 different teachers. I wanted to hear at the end of these sermons, if YOU are walking by faith and YOU have gotten out of the boat and you are swimming with only one life guard! Hang on! This is not easy! This not going to look like anyone Else's story. God is writing it very specific to you! People will not understand, they will look at you differntly, they will think you are crazy! Obviously not everyone is going to be obsessed with children in Africa! I often feel like I am on a one passenger crazy train! Asking why me lord? Why have you broken my heart for these children? I know that their are better people for this mission Lord! When you step out in faith, Lot's and Lot's of storms will come. You will feel weak and not worthy. You will feel lonely. BUT the only way to fight the storm is to build your self a shelter. One made up his words and his promises. He will protect you! You may still get hurt, or feel pain. His word is full of promises! He is perfect and faithful! I will fall and need help getting up again. He will not leave me. He has great plans for me. His plans, not mine. I cannot compete with worldly plans I will be let down every time! When I know that I am following his plan it feels right. I want a Warning Label sermon that says don't be afraid of the roller coaster ride called faith. Because God is your seat belt and it feels really good when you can throw your hands in the air and free fall knowing that this is God's will!!!!!!!